Timing May be everything?

It may be true that timing is everything. However in my case, this last week feels like I am in some bizarre time wreck!It all started with my outburst/breakdown last Tuesday. I was a mess. Yelling, screaming, crying and generally going completely bananas. I had had enough of everything. Much to my disgust and annoyance, I was told that it was pathetic that I cant handle my partner being away for 4 months. I was told that people have husbands away at war so why cant I cope. My question is have you been alone with my boys for 5 days 24hrs a day?

So I thought to myself; bugger them all. I am not living in the 1950's where the wife was the home maker and never even had a whim of Independence. Why on earth would you even make this comment to someone who is suffering from lack of sleep, let alone on the edge?
The rest of the week dragged on until it was Thursday. I independently packed my car. Went food shopping. Wrangled my kids up and the dog. Got into the car and drove to Merrijig. It was time for a family weekend. To catch up on what it is actually like being in a family situation as it has been so non existent lately!
I was humming along the road and felt free for a minute, while the kids slept. I talked to the dog as the radio signal kept dropping out. After a couple of near misses with a truck and a dickhead in a pig rig (Ute made up to shoot things) I was there. I did darn good I thought to get all that way and still be in one piece. However the Suby had other ideas. It was making a whirr noise when we got there. I put that to the way side though and began to enjoy the high country life. And so the weekend began.

It was days of 4WD, swimming, walking, going to the pub and sight seeing. The kids had a ball. I had my first experience of driving the car up a bloody huge hill. (All the while I was shitting myself mind you.) It was fun packed and I even bought some lovely fleece to felt with. Definitely a fun weekend.

When it was time to leave on Monday morning, after the over indulgence of Easter eggs. We went to start the Suby. "Whirrr....GGGG..WRRRRRRR." Jay and I both looked at each other and said "OH SHIT!" Not completely sure whether the engine is ceased, but pretty sure. We decided to bite the bullet and get a new car. It was a sad day. Jay then had to drive us home and then commute back by himself to Merrijig......bugger!

All round I am now falling back into that crazy woman who came out last week as I am now car-less and waiting to see whether finance is available to us.(Bloody banks suck!) I am concerned as the accountant has taken 2 days to find out what we can do and I nee a car now! It means that I am now stuck at home with no transport available to me. I definetly wont we walking anywhere, typically when it rains it pours. Good excuse to get into some sewing and cooking. Oh dear dont tell me I am turning into the 1950's wife. Next I will be setting my hair in curlers and wearing a pink frilly apron...........AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

"Oh, is it over aleardy?"

Yes, Yes it is already over. I am refering to the craft weekend I have just been on with some most awesome ladies! I had lots of fun as usual. Not too much craft done I my behalf as I had school stuff to do (thanks Sooz.) It was a weekend of relaxation and over consumption of food!( Thanks Maria!) But boy it was Good!

I managed to finish the pirate and have decided that after much thought that he is not going to wear boots as I like his stripey legs. Jaxon was wrapped when I came home and presented it to him. He has called it his "John Butler" pirate. Something to do with the dreads I suspect. Didn't have the heart to tell the poor kid that john has since cut them off! Anyway it appears after much discussion with a couple of girls away that I am now making a series of dolls. Kaya is getting a farmer version of the pirate next. Will try and make over the school holidays. keep you posted! We managed to get a walk in. However I will honestly think of Ocean Grove as the dog poo beach from now on. Very yucky when they have bags at the front of the beach for walkers to pick up the poo! It was a bit of a surf beach so I didn't go for a swim. Looked a bit rough but it was pretty from a far. I enjoyed standing on the board walk and watching the waves crash in loudly. Imust say that it also was lovely lying in bed with a sea breeze and the lovely background noise of the sea. We visited this great warehouse called KYO where some lovely japanese kimono material was purchased and some beautiful silk thread to embelish some felt work. i think we did o.k getting a bag of scraps for $10 and being able to find some lovely fabric to further this weekend projects. I am going to make myself a bag from one of the lovely prints.I can safely say now that I have a fabric addiction......I guess I have joined the club....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Now for the chocolate slice recipe. Here tis-

Chocolate slice

125g butter

1 tbsp golden syrup

1 cup of chopped dates

3/4 cup of brown sugar

1 egg beaten

250g choc biscuits

1/2 cup of sultanas and currants combined

Choc topping

150g dark chocolate chopped

30g copha

1) line a slice pan with grease proof pare. Melt butter and golden syrup in a saucepan. Stir in dired fruit and sugar and bring to the boil. Wait till cools and add egg. Stir well.

2)In a big bowl mix together remaining ingredients and add butter mixture. Put into slice pan, pressing down firmly. Chill in fridge for about 30 mins.

3) make icing mixture by melting dark chocoalte and copha in double boiler. Pour over slice mixture and set in fridge. Cut up into chunks to suit your chocolate craving. Yummo!

So yes the inevitable has happened. I am back home. jay is at work in Marijig and the kids are as wild as ever. Thank god for weekend like this to look forward to again! Thank you for all the fun we had ladies and thank you for your crafting abilities that inspire me every time! I am letting out a giant sigh now as I jump back into reality and the 39 degree heat!

Looking Forward to some R&R!

It has been a long week. With the long weekend being so busy and things looming over our heads.

Yes things were looming, no wait they were pushing down on us so hard that we were scared shit less. What I am referring to is a melanoma that Jay had removed from his back. It was small but had a funny raised head on it and had been bleeding. So while on a visit for a chest infection that had lasted 3 weeks (that's another story) it was removed for further examination. We had to wait from Friday till Wednesday for results. It was a sickening wait with Jay feeling very vulnerable and scared. I was worried out of my mind. It was so horrible to feel helpless. Jay has been away the last two days working so I had to give all my support via phone. Not fun believe me! Anyway much to our relief today Jay rang the Dr and everything is fine. Boy did we both sigh quite loudly. We both feeling alot better now we know he is o.k!

The long weekend was great we spent Saturday at Moomba which I always thought was so much bigger than it was. I am glad we only stayed a while due to the heat as the prices of rides were ludicrous! Jax insisted on having a go at the clown game. You know the one, it always results in a crappy plastic toy in the end. Jax and I also went on this caterpillar rollercoaster which he thought was great. He tried to rope Jay into it but of course he was too tall so it was up to mum!

The other fun thing we did was get the kids minded over night so we could go to "A day on the green" which featured Clare Bowditch, Lior and John Butler. It was all about having a picnic and a great time watching some great bands. We went with a couple of friends. Although it was a hot day we indulged in a bit of wine, a mud fight and some dancing. Great day! I also had the pleasure of meeting Lior, lovely man is all I can say. This weekend looks to be a busy one again. Going away on a craft weekend to Ocean Grove. Woo Hoo! Great company, great food, great massage and great crafty delights! I am hoping to work on the pirate I have been making for Jax. Hopefully get some felting done and some home work too. As I said a busy weekend. 2 more sleeps and counting!

Nuno Felt!

Something I decided to try this week. It has been hot, great felting weather!!!!

I decided that I would give nuno felt a whirl. What it is basically is when you use fleece as well as another fine open weave fabric such as silk or cotton. I had a brown scarf that was quite delicate looking so I used that.

I will however give full instructions next post when I take photos from beginning to end. Here however is a great photo to show you what a brilliant affect that the scarf and well selected colors have.Next post I will have a go at making a long scarf, something to add to an outfit to jazz it up a bit.

Oh has it been that long????????????

In all thats been going on right now I had no idea that it had been so long since I had bothered to type up a blog. Dont get me wrong I am completly enjoying sharing my life with the outside world, through thoughts and demonstrations of creativeness. I just have been swamped by a chain of events!

These events have been as follows-

*I got off my bum and enrolled in a course at TAFE- Professional writing and editing...about time!

*Jay is till working away during the week, leaving me as a single mum on the weekdays, who I might add is very sleep deprived and worn out!Tackling kinder and all the kids activities single handidly. Yes we do miss you Jay!!!!!!

(Jax 1st day of kinder)

*Many things to tend to around the house and garden as you will see in the picture below!

*Two boys equally mischevious as the next and very, very busy!

So now you can see my schedule has been CRAZY! One thing that I am most looking forward to is the fact that I get to go away with SOOZ, Cath and some great bloggers to Ocean Grove in 2 weeks time and just be! I am going to be doing homework but I think it is safe to say that I will most definetly be participating in some fine crafting conversation and a lovely 1 hour massage! (I think I deserve it. if only you could see what I look like right now! Not a pretty sight!)

Back to school talk now. Best decision I have made so far. Even if I am only 3 weeks into it. I have to say that I am really loving meeting new people and having a fair bit in common with them too. The course is so creative with a lot of theory and creative writing. I am learining all the basic grammar skills again and also learning how to structure a novel as well as how to get the confidence to get up and read at the term readings....something I am yet to master!!!!!!

Well have to leave this one short but sweet. I hope that next time I write I have an uncontolable urge to show you something new I have made .....could be soon! Or perhaps something I have written. Stay tuned!

Oh how could I forget..Thanks SOOZ for the great pattern idea of a kids playmat. I have made one called "3 Little Ducks" Very much the same as Sooz's great farm play mat she made Amy. Hope it's up to chop.Loved making it. kaya also equally loves playing with them!

Loss of a beautiful man!

I was wanting to write a post this week about all the fun things I have been doing, but something has effected me greatly that I feel I should share.Yesterday the world lost a beautiful man, an actor,director, father and man of many talents. Heath Ledger died yesterday in his New York apartment. I will always remember this day as a day I lost some of my youth. A day where a person I have watched grow has disappeared from my view.

I am not sure why I have been greatly effected by Heath's passing but I think it may have to do with the fact that over the years I have really admired him and felt a great connection to him. Maybe it was the fact he was around my age, maybe because he was a father of a small child or maybe just maybe he was just that someone I had a major crush on for so many years, while I too grew and became an adult. For me I will always remember where I was when I found out Heath had passed. It will be something that stays with me for a lifetime.

I hope that Heath has found peace and is in a good place. I also hope his family can gain strength from his passing. My heart goes out to Michelle and baby Matilda. May they all find peace and harmony.

Although I have never met Heath the obvious things make me feel like I have lost someone I know. I will miss him dearly as many of his fans will. May you be blessed with Peace Heath. My love to you. You will be sadly missed.

When it rains it pours!

Recently while Jay has been away I have found myself trying to wade through the many tasks of getting through a 1st birthday party, Xmas gift making, wrapping,decorating and cooking. I have never been more busy yet found myself completely lonely and feeling disheveled.
Then Xmas happened! Wow what a beautiful time we had on the two days we celebrated. Xmas eve with my folks and family and Xmas day with Jay's family. It was great fun for us and the kids. Needless to say my house now resembles a toy warehouse! I am glad a lot of gift givers asked what to get the kids and we didn't end up with too many plastic things. However I will be throwing around the names of some Steiner inspired shops come Jaxon's birthday in a month or so.
Great things have been happening. things that make me want to reach up to the sky and embrace the sunshine that is summertime. My close friends V and Dame just had a wonderful reception in Wangaratta to celebrate their wedding they had in Thailand. We stayed over the weekend in Wangaratta, kid free and footloose and fancy free. What a great time we had. They are a truly gorgeous couple who are expecting a bubby in April.....Oh I can wait! And V is probably the cutest pregnant lady I have seen!
My close friend Ellen just had a beautiful boy Baby Saxon River. Gorgeous baby! I was anticipating this birth for a while and had made several cute things for bubs. Some of which I forgot to take photos of but are still fresh in my mind!

We have just come back from a 5 day stint in Echuca where we camped on the banks of the Murray with some great friend.We spent new years here and had a ball. I myself was sceptical how I would manage with 2 kids, my partner and the heat, but it was great fun. We even had a wading pool for the kids to play in. Fun was had by all and we got to spend some great time with friends and spoil ourselves by going out for tea and going for cruises on the boat. Cant wait till next time!

(The down fall of the great time was I ended up with gastro which I am still feeling seedy from....I will recover though!)

Well Jay goes away again Monday and I am facing that whole "single mumdom" thing again. I am planning on throwing myself into a book I am waiting to get. It is a book on making toys and dolls so no doubt you will see the creations soon. Oh I have so much to keep me occupied. 2 boys, lots of sewing and the occasional glass of red. Hey I may just enjoy myself yet!!!!